Unhappy Blog.

I can’t think of an even psuedo clever segway into this topic so I’m just going to put it out there: I feel like I’ve lost the ability to be alone. I used to be a decently self sufficient person. I didn’t mind not being with other people; I could go to the beach or go ride my horse or hang out by myself and be okay with that. But as of late, any time I’m by myself I just feel depressed about it. Why can’t I be alone without feeling alone anymore? What happened to “time to think”? What happened to “me time”? Why is it that nowadays when my friends are busy I feel increasingly abandoned? I’m tired of the fact that my happiness increasingly hinges on the whims of other people, and I think I’m becoming the kind of person I never wanted to be. I want it to stop but I don’t know how to stop it. There’s my unhappiness for the day. Or the month. Or something.